REJOINDER: Why I think I am not a Christian

I am not too sure one is permitted to write a rejoinder on an article one wrote but this is what I am doing, because I have been persuaded to do so. In my first article (why I think I am not a Christian), I was battling with some self-identity; alternating between faith in God and total disbelief.

I wanted to hang on and be seen as a Christian but I wanted people to know that my faith had taken a dent and I never wanted to be seen beyond what I was. I was tired and frustrated because it seems Christianity in my environment was more like a cult group where I have certain standard and norm to conform to but which were not working properly for my existence. But something happened in the midst of the chaos; I got disconnected from the alternating current of believing partially and not believing at all and I got connected to the direct source of life.

The last three weeks or four has been the most pressing, demanding, the worst and the best period of my life. It was a period I desired death than life. It was a period when all that was around me seem fake and it was a period I wanted to cry out that I needed help. At a point I felt I was going to lose my mind and at a point it seem the chaos and the whole trouble I and my family was facing was going to swallow us. In my desperation to seek help, I went about using my strength and wisdom to do so. I like things to be done properly and orderly (critically analyse and draw inferences and conclusion) but alas I was creating a mess when I thought I was seeking solution. The king told the woman who cried to her for help, ‘Where do you want me to get help for you, if God does not help you’ (1Kings 6:27). I gave up hope in my ability to rescue the situation and threw in the towel. I confessed my inability to make things happen and I did quit. Then GOD stepped in! He did not come as a whirlwind or supernatural force that swept all the problems away at a go but He began to show Himself strong every day; using me, people who created the problem and third parties to bring solution. We offended God yet God was the one who went about looking for solution on how to reconcile mankind unto Himself (1 John2:1-2; Phil 2:5-8). I was connected back to that resurrection power which is the future hope of many but which can be activated at every point in need just as Jesus activated it in John 11: 23-44 (with emphasis on vs 23-26). Martha believed that the resurrection of death was a future hope but Jesus told and proved her to the contrary. Lazarus corpse need not wait for the resurrection day because the person who personified resurrection and life was present in the situation. If Jesus is present in your situation, the promise of the future and hope is instantly activated in your situation.

Peace